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Broken hearts...

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 It's election night and I don't care to watch. Not because I don't care, but because I am suffering a broken heart for two young people who lost their precious mother last night. The oldest of the two is my teen's buddy. The two girls are as close as sisters. My teen always referred to Ellie's mom as her second mother. Ellie is a bubbly teen that has a heart for her little brother. Often, I would see her at the school where the tween still attends to pick her brother up because her mom was working. The two would walk over a mile one way to get to school. Ellie is a responsible teen when it comes to caring for her brother. Her mother taught her to be just that. Ellie and her mother were best friends. Now Ellie is being strong for everyone. Many a car ride home Ellie would laugh with Peyton, and they would beg to hang out together, but with Ellie's mom at work it had to wait till the weekend. But then SIL left us for heaven, so the weekend had to wait until we re
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It has been a minute..

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 So much has happened in the last six months and so much more in the last six days... at some point I really need to get off of the merry go round that I have been spinning on. In the past I would have said "where am I going and why am I in this handbasket?" Although I am tempted to say it right now, I won't. Only because I am beginning to realize where it is that I am going. I would try to update this blog, but it would take way too long to even begin. It has been cold enough to turn on the heat at night since returning from Montana. I have not started the heat in the chicken house yet and I hope to not have to until February at the earliest. I truly would like to pack up my family, all of them, and move. I do not know where to is the problem. I have a strong urge to move where my parents are and try to take care of them. But it is cold there and I don't like cold. Would I do it if they needed me? Yes, I would. They say they do not need me. It might be true; my siste
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It is so hard sometimes

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 It has been a minute since I have taken the time to engage on this platform. I do not really miss it that much. Quite a bit has happened in 2 months. Surgery for me, a new diagnosis for my mom, school starting for the kids, company arriving and departing, quite a bit more that makes it just amazing to realize how fast time is going. Our trip to Michigan was fast, but good. Everyone is doing the best that they can. We tossed around getting a small house for vacations and long-term stays; however, I think we have decided against the idea.  I am still unpacking from the trip. The urgency to downsize is apparent. A list of things to work on is started but like most lists I make it gets interrupted by daily life. Starting the dishwasher at 0500 this morning I received a call from the care center reminding me there is another person who is in need of my attention. Add a visit to my list. The oldest announced that it is Thursday, great I thought I would drop kids at school and return home to
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hurry up and wait...

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It seemed like forever to get to this day. Yet here I am sitting at USAFA waiting for my turn with the surgeon
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