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What I have learned in a month of Sundays

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 While I certainly wish it had been more, I am thankful that it wasn't, as learning is sometimes, done best when it comes with challenges. I have learned in the last two years that the camera tells one story and life tells another. I have also learned that I am weak. Sure, I can do lots of things. But in the relationship, I am a pushover. I have learned that even if you say you won't; when it comes down to it, you will. I thought we were done with boomerang kids... we are not. You cannot tell your kid, even your step kids, when they need a parent to step up or a soft place to land, you can say you won't, but you will. I have learned you can do this even if you do not know why because you do not need to know why. Sometimes you just need to listen. Say nothing and accept that sometimes nothing will be said. I have learned to accept whatever help a person can give and never expect help. In this way I will never be disappointed. It is hard for me to accept physical help or even...

Sunday...again

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  Yesterday was the second Saturday of the New Year. It is not any different than any other Saturday I suppose. I did not hear from anyone making any requests of me, well the kind of requests that I have decided are not good for me or the requestee that is. When I reached out to my sister to ask if she was going to Poteau, she stated no she was going to come to this town so I could look at the surgery site of my BIL. I told her I had planned to go to Poteau anyway so I would just meet her there. It took a while to get organized to go, but I got there eventually, and the site looked okay for only being 2 weeks post op. I checked my messages before heading home and I did have a text and a missed call, but I refrained from responding. Mostly because I had a kid in tow and I am sure the conversation would gravitate to subjects best left alone. I am learning although it be very slowly. Once back home I took the kids to Walmart and to get pizza and to Hobby Lobby. All of that went f...

Busy hands, happy heart... or so they say

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Today was busy. It started late and continued to move along at a steady pace. Then my friend called. The conversation did not flow very smooth at first. Once I stated that I knew some of what went on, the words flowed freely from her heart. Much of it I had already guessed, and sadly much of what I had guessed was true. If I could shake some sense into someone, that someone should be me. I am removing myself from the situation and I refuse to continue to allow myself to watch my friend suffer. By all rights I should turn the daughter in, but that would crush her mother. Am I saving her just to kill her or killing her to save her? I must close now before too much more happens. The granddaughter is no better, perhaps even worse than her mother in the deeds done to the brother. Where is common sense? Where is justice? It is not here. Birds in the tree this morning it is an egg!

First Week of 2026

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  Good morning world. It is 2026, the first Sunday of the New Year. Two of my dogs have GI upset and are making a lot of work for me in the clean-up department. I woke up to a terrible smell for one of the critters, thankfully, it was gas. After putting them outside for a bit, I looked at text messages.  No great news there either. The first text was a request to "rent" our RV by a friend's daughter. This is one time I was really thankful that the item was not in my name. This is also one time that even if it had been I knew I would not say yes. I sent her a text that basically copped out on the ability to rent to her, but it also addressed that if she were to leave her mother and daughter in the "volatile" situation she would be doing a disservice to them. Therefore, even if the decision were mine, it would still be a hard "NO". This request came on the heels of a previous request to pay a month of insurance on the home they are all living in, to faci...

Christmas day 2025

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 Merry Christmas! I am still processing some of my thoughts on the Holiday traditions that I want to keep versus the ones I do not want to keep. For now, I need to decide for sure where I want to be 9 months of the year.  Christmas dinner is delayed until my younger sister returns from Washington where she is meeting her daughter-in-law for the first time. She is having a great time! They are stationed in Washington state. My older sister went to Hawaii to spend Christmas with her oldest grandchild (almost 3) they have a very close relationship. My other sister went to Colorado to see her daughter and her family there. Me, I decided to visit a new ER for DH for Christmas this year. This one tradition I DO NOT want to continue. I am leaning toward not getting any more animals as the noise level with the turnpike right next to the house is annoying for me. I can only imagine how the birds feel. Perhaps it is just the season, but in Colorado they laid all winter albeit less, ther...

Christmas eve in the winter home 2025

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 It has been a minute since I have posted anything to the blog. No, I did not die, I did travel to our winter home and the longer we are here, the more concerned I am that it will be more than a winter home. It is by far the noisiest place I have ever lived, or at least it seems that way. We have been here 10 days, and my newest great grandchild is also 10 days old. She was not due until the end of January 2026, but here she is none-the-less. She is 4lbs 2oz as of Monday and holding her own in the breathing department. It is now Christmas eve and as in years past we opened our gifts so that tomorrow can be devoted to actually remembering the Savior. There was also a trip to the ER as DH felt that would be better than an urgent care. I personally wasn't real sure which would be better being new to this area. But I went with it. What a long day. Up early to buy a refrigerator, finish wrapping gifts, Let the gifts be opened, off to the ER, rush home to kill a wasp, race back out for p...

week 3 for one and week 1 for the other

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Good morning blog it is the end of the week and homeschooling is in full swing. Both girls are now doing it full time. The older teen is definitely more invested in finishing the work. The younger is still resistive for the most part. However, she is a lot less resistive to this than PS. So, onward we go. Keeping up with the four hours is the hardest part, I forget to write down what we did or maybe I procrastinate and then forget. Either way I have to find the book that was my "tool" to keep track of things, but I have buried it under something. I got up early to pack coolers for the trip to Oklahoma and have been running in circles since. DH had planned to head out by himself and with some of the forgetfulness that has occurred this week it was not what I wanted to happen. In the end he left with the boys following him in the Audi.  I will take care of the animals and kids and try to get done what needs to be done in the meantime. There was a lot more room in the horse trai...