Robin's Nest

 Today I got up and didn't even consider what day it was until I went into our bedroom to get my clothes ready for church. Frankly, I really didn't feel up to going to church today, but I vowed with the kids homeschooling that we would go, if at all possible, no matter how much I felt like not going. I had weird dreams last night. Weird enough to remember too. As I entered the bedroom DH asked if I knew what day it was, I said yes, the 8th, not thinking about the significance of the day. He had barely got the thought out of his mouth when it registered that it had been 4 years since our home had burned to the ground. Maybe the dreams tied in with the date, maybe they didn't. We chatted a bit and I went to make the morning coffee and get the girls ready for church. The youngest put forth a fuss, but not much of one. The older one came out of hiding and poured herself a bowl of cereal and immediately retreated back to her room. We talked a bit longer and then DH headed off to...

 There are only 3 days left to the final hearing for the adoption of the girls. It has been a long journey and as far as we know this is really it. Although we also thought that in May, and it wasn't. June has been such a busy month and yet it seems to be dragging along at the slowest pace ever. Even our plans for the summer have been moving, well really, they have been at a stand still waiting for this day. I am amazed at how much it affects my whole life. We cannot go on vacation, I cannot send DH to clean the rest of the stuff out of the Montana house, I cannot make permanent plans for SIL. all because I cannot make a thoughtful decision because I am pre-occupied with the distractions of the "final" hearing. The stress level this month has been off the charts. SIL having challenges in the facility, tweaking my knee, kids out of school, incessant texting from an absent parent, waiting for the closing, finding out someone has cancer, kids moving home after a home sale, a...