Old dogs learning new tricks...
So I thought if I just focus on learning how to use this iPad my font fight would be over... not so much. But that alone is not the reason for this post. My work life and home life are about to change drastically. This week I lost two workers who have been with me for over five years each. That's not long in the scheme of life, but it represents an investment in their lives, the lives of the residents we care for and the families who depend on us for that care.
As I listen to the state of the union address I realize we have such privilege in this country to be able to choose our own path and to do what is meaningful to us no matter how trivial it may seem to someone else.
This week I have taken time to try and figure out where I am and where I am going, the past shows up and reminds me that I have hurt so many people and the more I try to control which way my life goes the more I mess things up. If I could go back in time, oh if only! Why is it that it takes us so long to realize that we must ask for what we want, no, demand it even if others tell us no that isn't what is best for us!!?? It would be so much easier if we saw the top of the finished tapestry that our choices weave instead of the bottom.
My life is what it is because of choices voiced and remaining silent at the worst times. If given the opportunity in this lifetime I will make better choices, the right choices not because I am smarter but because I was so naïve and stupid the first go round.... dear younger me...
But alas the choices are made and life goes on.
As I listen to the state of the union address I realize we have such privilege in this country to be able to choose our own path and to do what is meaningful to us no matter how trivial it may seem to someone else.
This week I have taken time to try and figure out where I am and where I am going, the past shows up and reminds me that I have hurt so many people and the more I try to control which way my life goes the more I mess things up. If I could go back in time, oh if only! Why is it that it takes us so long to realize that we must ask for what we want, no, demand it even if others tell us no that isn't what is best for us!!?? It would be so much easier if we saw the top of the finished tapestry that our choices weave instead of the bottom.
My life is what it is because of choices voiced and remaining silent at the worst times. If given the opportunity in this lifetime I will make better choices, the right choices not because I am smarter but because I was so naïve and stupid the first go round.... dear younger me...
But alas the choices are made and life goes on.
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